Messy Jessy

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the eternal holding pattern October 5, 2010

Filed under: Charlotte,life,vent — Jess @ 2:22 pm
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Have you ever been on a plane and just as you think your flight is about to come to a close, you enter a holding pattern (for whatever reason – weather, ground control, traffic) and you start circling the airport. You are so close to being “home” or at least having arrived at your destination for the day, but not fully there yet with the plane on the ground.

Over the past few months I feel like I have been in a holding pattern of sorts. We packed up, left Texas, and thought closing on our house would be only a matter of a few weeks  – the final destination was in sight. But then we entered this holding pattern. It seems like we are eternally circling around waiting to land and for the flight (or more like rollercoaster) to come to an end.

I am trying to make the best of the waiting time or holding pattern. Some aspects of life have been put on hold as we’re waiting for things to come to an end. Most days I’m okay with the wait but today I’m simply not. I’m tired of waiting with life on hold. I want to go to grad school. I want to start a family. I want to be done with the worry and financial stress of owning and maintaining a house 1,000 + miles away.  I want to move out of our apartment in Charlotte and buy a house to settle into.  I’m just done and ready for this ride to be over so I can push play and get on with life.


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